It's the little things in life...

People say these few words all the time "It's the little things in life that matter most", but I never really sat back and thought about just how true that really was until I had kids. 

We went to Prescott for a much needed getaway from life.   My mom watched the boys while Dale and I had our first "date" alone in nearly 7 months (babysitters cost wayyy too much).  We saw Sherlock Holmes and it was WONDERFUL!! It was so nice to be able to sit and hold Dale's hand and watch a movie without worrying about who might spill what and who pinched whom...not that I mind it, I LOVE being mommy, but sometimes it's nice to have a break!!  We had a wonderful weekend just hanging out by the fire, playing outside, seeing Dale's mom and watching TV, but I have to say the very best part was watching my amazing boys play in their first snowfall of the year....it was priceless, and made me think about what truly matters in life!

"Each day is a new canvas to paint upon. Make sure your picture is full of life and happiness, and at the end of the day you don't look at it and wish you had painted something different."

-- Author Unknown

Our sweet Angel Mary...she is now in God's loving embrace....

MB - I promise you that she is watching over you right now...that you are not alone...that you are not an intruder..you are loved....you are family (even when you don't want to be)....and you are very much an inspiration to us all....I love you, you are my guiding light, my savior, my guardian angel, my hope and my sister for life.......

"Angels are the guardians of hope and wonder, the keepers of magic and dreams. Wherever there is love, an angel is flying by. Your guardian angel knows you inside and out, and loves you just the way you are. Angels keep it simple and always travel light. Remember to leave space in your relationships so the angels have room to play. Your guardian angel helps you find a place when you feel there is no place to go. Whenever you feel lonely, a special angel drops in for tea. Angels are with you every step of the way and help you soar with amazing grace. After all, we are angels in training; all we have to do is spread our wings and fly!"

-- Author Unknown

Sadness without Solution....

So I am usually pretty good at fixing things...I see something is broken, I put my mind to it and a little elbow grease...and I get it fixed, but I guess I am only human right...not everything has an immediate solution.  So what do you do when you can't fix it!!!!????

I am struggling right now....my poor, sweet, amazing hubby cannot find a job anywhere, despite all of his time, efforts, dedication and sheer will, he still can't find anything out there and I fear that he is loosing his will to "make it happen" I want to make all of the bad day's go away for him like he did for me so many times in the past with his love, support and understanding of what I was going through.  But I just don't have the tools to fix it!!

It's not easy being a parent, you stuggle daily in your mind about if you said or did the right thing, if your child is getting enough sleep, food, excercise and quality time with the people that matter most. Now add a 2 1/2 year old "ALL BOY" and a 6 year old with Mommy's Emotions to the mix and I think that anyone might loose their mind. So I try to pass off my hubby's short fuse to spending wayyyy too much time dealing with the emotions two young boys, but I worry that his patience are wearing thin and then what do we do???

I love my husband more than anything in this world and I would give up anything for him to be happy, but how do you talk a person into being "positive and upbeat about things" when you aren't really feeling it yourself.  I will never give up on my positive attitude when it come to my family and I know that something will come soon, but man...this is ROUGH!!!

Faith is the bird that sings when the dawn is still dark.

Rabindranath Tagore

Mr. Mom got motivated...what about me???

Ok, so it's the new year and I am supposed to be motivated, energized, thrilled and extatic about the New Year right????  So how come I am NOT???  Don't get me wrong...I have all these plans and ideas about what I would like to do to improve myself:

1. Loose Weight and tone up (anyone have a few extra hours in the day for me to borrow)
2. Eat Better (Guess my popcorn and apples diet isn't working like I had hoped)
3. Be more patient and positive again (I got mad at the copier yesterday for not printing..come to find out I        never sent my document to the printer)
4. Work on being more patient and a better mom to my kiddos (Benny is 2 1/2...NUFF SAID)
5. GET DALE A JOB...HE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY AT HOME!!!

I also think that I might thrive a bit on stress.  I think we all handle stress a bit differently, I don't always handle it perfectly, but I am sooo used to "handling" the household items along with the kids and my job that I don't know what to do with myself now that Dale is home and handling all of that stuff.  Don't get me wrong...I still have PLENTY to do - work keeps me very busy and when I get home at 5:00 I make dinner, play with the kiddos, give them a bath and help put them to bed with Dale, but I never thought our roles would reverse.  Dale is now doing the laundry, cleaning, picking up the boys from School, taking care of the boys and I am making the "money"....using the term "money" very LOOSELY as Dale made about 2 times what I made.  So when I come home, while I still have things to do, I am not as motivated as I used to be, I am more tired and lazy...what's up with that???!!!! 

But enough about my complaints....  People always ask me how we are coping with Dale not having a job yet and believe it or not, I am happy that Dale is getting a break!!!  Dale has worked for as long as I have known him...19 years to be exact...but he started working when he was 15 years old!  He helped build houses, worked retail, scooped ice cream, sold hot dogs and drove a fork lift while paying his way through college and in the last 10 years has been an estimator and a project manager and has never really complained or taken a break...so now it's his turn to relax a bit and let me take the wheel.

So as I go back to look through what I just wrote, I am reminded of how lucky I am and how that ALONE should be my motivation to be better in EVERY way!  I have an amazing family and friends, two adorable healthy and happy boys, a loving, kind and generous husband who is doing everything he can to get back into his comfort zone and a roof over my head...what more could I need???

"How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life you will have been all of these."

George Washington Carver

So what's with my blog name????

I know...I know...it's a strange title, and I don't believe that I am a muse, nor that I will be kissed by any of my readers....I am one of those "unusual" souls who grew up loving movies like Xanadu, The Original Hairspray, Saturday Night Fever, Annie, crybaby...the list goes on and on.  I just can't help it....those movies have always taken me into a different world...one of songs, dance, fantasy, crazy clothing, other worlds, sex, wanting and love. 

What can I say, I have always wanted to be Kira...one of the 9 sisters, beautiful, perfect, haunting and inspiring.....I have always wanted to be someones "Muse". 

While I will never be Zeuses daughter, a redhead with curly hair or a disco dancing queen, I do hope that when my life is over..someone I love will tell me that I was their muse.  I have many Muses in my life who make life worth living and who make me feel like I am someone special!

So here's to a new Year...full of hope, expectations, progress, love and laughter. And as I write in my brand new blog - I will be thinking about my Muses...the one who makes me laugh...the one who makes me love...the one who makes me create....and the one who makes me live the most wonderful life imaginable.

Kubla Khan

Samuel Taylor Coleridge

In Xanadu did Kubla Khan

A stately pleasure-dome decree :

Where Alph, the sacred river, ran

Through caverns measureless to man

Down to a sunless sea.............

A new year...a better year...I HOPE!!

So a few months back, my AMAZING, WONDERFUL, FANTASTIC, should have been my sister, best friend Mel suggested that a group of her friends get together and all write blogs about their lives.  I love this idea, not only because my life is CRAZY, but also because it's theraputic for me to share my craziness with others and to see that I am no the only CRAZY person around!!

So...here's to a new year, a new outlook, a new blog!!!